Update...

"You will come to realize that what appears today to be a sacrifice will prove instead to be the greatest investment you will ever make."

-Gordon B. Hinckley

It has been far to long since my last blog. I don't know if I simply get to preoccupied with life to blog or if I just don't feel like I have anything to say. Maybe it is a little of both. I think it is time for a little update on life though! 

DAVAIN

He is getting so big it is down right ridiculous. Four has been a fun age. I think it's been my favorite. It is an age of independence but yet he knows that he still needs his mommy. He has been so thoughtful in some of the things that he has said lately and I really feel that he might be starting to "get" what I have been trying to teach him about the choices that we make. Everyday is a new adventure with him and I am thankful for the challenges and love I have learned from being his mother. 

ME

Well I have been so incredibly busy. I started playing competitive basketball at BYU-Idaho and have had a really good time. It has been a lot of work to get into better shape and keep up with some of the younger girls but I have loved the way that I feel after a good practice. Basketball has always been something that I love and I am thankful for the opportunity that I have had to participate. 

School has been busy but I have been enjoying my classes this semester. I have prayed and pondered about my education and the next step and have felt prompted to make a change in my direction. I plan on attending a Dental Assisting program in Idaho Falls in the fall while I take the classes left to finish up my AA degree. I think this will be a good step in a direction that will help me provide better for my little family. I also hope to be finding a job doing hair this summer. First, I will be heading back home in April to work up there for a few weeks and enjoy some time with my wonderful family and friends from home. 

Besides school I have taken a great interest in study my scriptures more diligently lately. I have fallen in love with this blog: http://www.theredheadedhostess.com/category/scripture-study-2/book-of-mormon/. This lady is amazing! She has all these wonderful study ideas and I purchased one of her study journal books. I love it. I can sit for hours and simply search the scriptures and look up talks about a specific topic I am studying. I totally recommend her site to anyone who wants to get more out of their scripture study! My scripture study has become a great source of comfort recently.

Life has been interesting here in Rexburg and I have sure learned a lot about myself. I have learned a lot about what I need to do to become a better person. Lately, I have been spending a lot of time with someone who has become very dear to me. Her name is Kayla and she too is a single mom. I have met very few single moms (at least ones that have a similar story to mine) and have loved the friendship that is growing. She is an amazing woman! Not only is she a single mother of two but she attends school full-time and works. What a great example of a woman that can do it all. The great thing about this new friendship is that Davian loves her son who is also four! They have become pretty good pals.  I am so very thankful for her friendship and support.

It is simply amazing to me the ways that the Lord can bless us. He has always know exactly what I needed when I needed it. I was feeling pretty down not having made friends as quickly as I usually do. Around this time Kayla and I really started to become better friends. Ironically, she was the first person I really met in Rexburg. She is in my ward and came up and introduced herself. She mentioned she was a single mother and I knew that I was in the right place and that the Lord had given me a friend to help me through this journey. The very thought of that special impression from the Holy Ghost brings tears to my eyes.

Last Sunday I received a blessing from my Bishop and one of the things that he said was "angels watched over me because of my special circumstances". This is something that I have always felt. As a single parent you don't ever feel like you are being enough. You cannot possibly fulfill the role of the absent parent and that is very difficult at times. I have come to know and understand that the Lord looks after me though. He takes care of me and He helps me take care of Davian such a wonderful blessing that is. When it comes to angles watching over me...I have felt this most when it comes to the amazing people that I have had in my life. Of course my parents and my family are the ones that I lean on the most but I have found great comfort in friendship from people. My friend Audrey was one of my first friends in Moscow, Hailie, Chantal, Heather, Janae, and even Jarred have all helped me through some very lonely times. And now sweet Kayla. What a wonderful blessings I seem to always receive from the Lord.

I think this is more than enough for tonight. I wasn't planning on going in this direction but my heart has really been so full and this was a great way to express some of how I have been feeling. Until next time =)