Stupid Boy

Stupid Boy 

(Keith Urban)

Well, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different

Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holdin' back the wind

She laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy

So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it, push it around?
I guess to build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down

Well, she laid her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't

You stupid boy, oh, you always had to be right
But now you lost the only thing
That ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeah

Well, she laid her heart and soul right in your hands, yeah
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans, yes, you did
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't

You stupid boy
Oh, I'm the same old, same old stupid boy

It took a while for her to figure out
She could run but when she did
She was long gone, long gone

She's gone
Long gone
Yeah she is now
Yeah, ohh

On and on [incomprehensible]
She loved me, she loved me, she loved me
God, please, doesn't matter no
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry baby

Yeah, I don't believe
She's never coming back to me

The Lord's Timing

"Accept cheerfully the place in life in which you find yourself each day, believing that while you are in that place, it is the best place on earth for you."

On Sunday Sister Wilke talked about the process of how the caterpillar transformers into a butterfly. She talked about the struggle it takes for a butterfly to emerge out of its chrysalis. She related this to our life and our own personal trials. Sometimes we have to struggle so we can grow. Above is a cute little quote that I got from Relief Society on Sunday. It is always amazing to me how the Lord knows exactly what we need to hear. You have to go through the hard struggle to grow. That has been difficult for me to learn but I know that all the experiences that I have will be for my good and help me grow into the woman that I am suppose to be.

LIFE AS I KNOW IT

I decided to try this blog thing again. I am not one that is good with words or do I think that what I have to say is all that important but I think this could be a good release. Also, I thought this would be a way to "journal" some of the happenings in my crazy mixed up life! So here it goes...

Right now I am attending school at SFCC, working part-time, and being full-time mom. As I think back on my life I never imagined it would be this way. Here I am at 23 returning back to school when I should be finishing. While school has been a blessing it has also been a challenge. I have had to learn to balance my time with Davian, work, and school. It has been tricky but I know that an education is the best way to secure a better future for Davian. I know this short-term struggles will be well worth it in the end. At this point I also have to assume that I will never get married again. I can't base my life decisions on assuming I will be married again. I have to live my life in the present and not in the future. Though, I want to get married again, at this point it isn't something that I am choosing to focus on. I know that prince charming is out there and really he must be pretty great considering how long the Lord is making me wait for him ;) In all honesty, I think the Lord wants me a little more prepared for that chapter in my life. So here I am. Driving myself crazy while attempting to get an education and being mom. Thank goodness for the continuing support of my wonderful family and friends!

Davain. He is such a busy boy. I have truly loved this age. He's personality has been unfolding throughout his three years of life and he cracks me up. In fact, as he says, "I crack myself". Even he finds himself amusing. He truly has a sweet heart and lots of love to give. Lucky for me he loves his momma dearly. I love all the funny things he has to say. I will make an effort to remember them and write them on here to share. I am so very blessed to have him in my life and wonder where I would be if he wasn't with me. He has brought me such an amazing amount of joy and love. He has truly been a healing power in my life. The Lord has truly blessed my life in so many ways.

I am looking forward to the future that is approaching. I have been praying and pondering about some changes for the future and I know that great things are to come!